Femi Ninja

So if you follow me on facebook you know that I am very politically involved with women's rights.
Over the  last few weeks I have been called everything from a pro-abortionist to a fascist, and even a sexist.

My views are rather simple in all actuality; I do not hate men, Obviously because I married one. Which in turn I think does not make me a sexist, I have nothing against men at all they are vital to society just as much as women are.

I am not for abortion personally for my own body that is my choice.
 I am a firm believer in the fact that a women's (or man)  body is their own to do with it as they please. I am not sitting on the corner of planned parent hood waving a banner that says screw child birth get an abortion of course not, I am a mother myself.
I however believe that it is your own personal choice, If you can afford to get an abortion every time you have an unwanted pregnancy than your rolling in some serious doe because at 600-700$ a pop for the ever day female this would be impossible! These women deserve a safe place with health care professionals who treat them with dignity and respect. I refuse to let women die because of religion and the rampant home abortions. Women do not deserve to die because they want to do what they please with their body.

I really don't think I am a freaking fascist I just want equality for everyone if that even makes sense 0_o

 I believe in the quote on my poster; No self respecting women should work or wish for the success of a party that ignores her sex. 

I am a vital part of society and I deserve to be able to exercise  my rights.

END OF STORY!

You can't be friends with me, you are not crunchy enough.

I have only been a parent for two years come May.
My style of parenting is more like whatever works today may not work tomorrow so thank goodness its working right now. BUT! I consider myself more crunchy, my daughter eats mostly home made meals, snacks and our ( mostly mine cause lets get serious husband just hushes his mouth and agrees) philosophy is simple ( at least I think so) We talk to our daughter no matter what, when she has done something wrong we take her aside an tell her what happened, what we can do to fix it and, why we do or don't do something. Obviously in simple yet not half assed phrases..We spank only to show that is super dangerous we figure if we continue to do it for every little thing, it would eventually be funny or not taken seriously so far it works, we go to festivals , and we garden. I am really weirded out by foods and toxins and things so we eat out rarely and candy on a special occasion (besides her now one lolli pop a day after daycare, my husband thought it was a great idea! its one of those  little dum dums >.<)  don't get me wrong I eat fast food, and indulge in some yummy candy but it isn't something we eat everyday . I clean my house with all natural substances expect for the bath room something about those germs seem like they deserve lysol. We recycle make compost yeah yeah yeah  we are basically 70/30 in the whole crunchy realm

In the beginning I wanted to do it all, breastfeed, have a natural water birth, baby wear and, cloth diaper I wanted to be the full fledged natural momma whipping her goods out to feed her baby! ( laughing)

It didn't really work out that way, I didn't produce milk at all! at all! I ate every vitamin, cookie EVERYTHING! nothing happened. I felt this guilt  and I held it over my head, I was embarrassed to be feeding my kid a bottle. now, it wasn't a society thing it was an inner guilt of fuck what the hell am I good for? I can't even feed my baby, add my husband being deployed with a loooooong time to go before he would even return for R&R the baby blues hit me hard. Harder than I had even anticipated  ...the stress was horrible add being alone with her all day it was just intense I had this expectation to do everything perfect...

I get on a forum  for crunchy mommas and there it was the vaccine debate..
I was shunned basically for making the decision to vaccinate  ...from a group of people I had been talking to since my pregnancy. I felt so like holy shit really?  you are just going to ditch me because I don't agree with something you do?? I mean I thought we were adults( and friends as well) and people were entitled to their own opinion? WRONG!

They went on to say I was slowly murdering my child and how dare you! and blah blah blah hippie momma vomit...


My main thing is I have seen disease  in South America;although, it was with an indigenous tribe who have no connection really with western medicine. While I was there I saw a child die of whooping cough, it impacted me in such a way that I promised myself if I ever have children they will receive their vaccines.. I was one of those people who thought it was useless that it would cause autism ..That it was big pharmaceutical company's way of stealing money from the population even brain washing (rolls eyes, everyone is entitled to like something with out knowing the truth even if in the end it makes you an ignorant person for not doing research)   However I did learn not only by experience but with my Grandfather who was a Doctor and  who's specialty was  in infectious diseases. Helped  me see the bigger picture that it wasn't the devil and if she didn't have it who knows how sick she could get or what she could get.. things that have been eradicated could very well come back due to this crazy idea that our children don't need vaccines that it is useless and invasive.

I doubt they will be saying it the moment an epidemic or endemic arise, they will have wished they vaccinated their child.

BUT i'm not crunchy because I vaccinate my child bite me! I am not one thing or another I am just a momma trying to do the best by her baby!

You can keep you granola jargon I am sooo over it!

i'll just continue to do me and stick with the only other forum I use, SOLO OPS! They have NEVER EVER in like 5 years have let me down!!! so there you can have it, I am not going to waist my time explaining something you have no interest in hearing! 

I'm sooooo HOOD!

So, I wake up this morning at like 5:57 to the ringing of my cell phone, it was a text message. I get up to check it, it was super sunny already; I about died and had a heart attack thinking I had over slept! No it was a fucking text message from a girls husband!

we will name her Jane*
** back story,  Jane and her husband have been having some issues blah blah they have gotten into it physically ,and trust me I have tried everything to get her out of this situation and nothing has sunk in yet! I can not fix stupid.**

On Earth day at school one of their fights where going on she was telling us all sorts of shit, he was going to come up there ..blah blah ...I take her home .. i'm nervous, I don't want to leave her there..she looked like she wanted nothing to do with going inside but she did it anyway. We had a plan we had talked about  it since 8 am in the morning till 5, and an  hour in traffic! She was standing her ground she was going to leave. I told her, stay with me for the weekend just so you can  have a moment for your  thoughts. I get a call at about sixish in the afternoon it is one of our friends asking for her ..she's called , texted nothing. I called her and waited...and waited a little longer then I called her again NOTHING. Our friend called me frantic, she said she just had a terrible feeling. I too had that stomach turning feeling going on;  dude something isn't right I know my girl, She knows I worry!

I figure to myself I'd rather be safe rather than sorry. Informing husband (while dancing around with our basically two year old) (sad face I can not believe my human is getting so big!)  he shouts to me in a rather goofy voice " Take the gun with you" Um??? did i miss something? I am not afraid a 5'4 man! he can kiss my  few shades lighter than  nuttella ass! I don't need it! I run out the door, grabbed our friend and headed to Jane's house ..knock ,knock everything is ok, he's leaving ok, she decides to stay fine,fine! Knowing that she wasn't hurt or anything was worth the short drive.

NOW BACK TO THIS MORNING!

I wake to threatening text messages; Not only is it the butt crack of DAWN!
This guy thought it would be cool to threaten my husband and I, reading this all I can think about is are you fucking kidding me? This was so important to you, you fucking needed to it first thing? I am sorry do you not have a life bro that must suck for you!

This is what it consisted of, now I am not "grammer nazi" but ummmm yeah this is just terrible!

"so on the real you brought a gun to my house, if i ever see your husband he better pray to god he has has a gun, yall fucked up cuz yall dont know me tell him to bring his ass to come see me anywhere anytime"


He went one to say

"and YOU aint ever dont it. ill beat your fuck ass dont talk shit just come see me"


Are you fucking kidding me? Who the fuck are you? Some "gangster" a "thugg" because you are making yourself sound hellatiously stupid right now. I am an adult, I am not going to sit there and let you have your way with me but I am most definitely not going to waist my time on petty fucking bullshit that bus left years ago. Jane knows because I thought it was funny, MY husband telling me to take a gun some where is like me telling him to become an occupy protester it is just not in me. I know how to use it, I am not scared of it. I just don't think I need to walk around like a paranoid bag of douche. I understand it was for my safety..I had no idea of what I was walking into, the upside down pain in  my stomach told me that unfortunately I could be stepping into ANYTHING! In all actuality it wasn't a horrible idea. I just couldn't do it, it is not me...luckily nothing happened and everything was goodies.


BUT MOTHERFUCKERRRRRR, You had me angry at breakfast! I felt like I was in hell because she refused to do anything that meant standing her ground... again I can not fix stupid this is ridiculous he's insulting you, breaking you, EVEN physically hurting you; yet you just let it slide! You know why it's happening but you are not seeing the bigger picture ohhh he'll be ok with spice ummmm that is not OK the kid can not be nice when he's fucking stoned an a douche when its not there...its worse than feening its just like bi polar just  180 flip , Its fucking stupid it will kill you, it's hurting people, the addiction rate for this is HUGE here in Clarksville..How do you sell something that imitates something illegal? Answer me that yo? Last time I checked the real shit could be at least made into all sorts of useful textiles and what not! (we'll save that one for another day!)

Any way! I have had enough of this high school drama for one day! Not only did I have to miss class but I had to sit there and baby you because the truth was entirely too painful!



mannnnnnnn woooosahhh.

Facebook you are super inventive!

So because this is such a new blog, I've decided (since my child is taking a what is looking like a rather long nap) I should write a little bit in it even if it is just a bunch of ramblings.

What the hell is up with this whole "like" for money an shit like that I am not entirely sure it really even goes there or if they are getting payed ( can you get payed through likes??) but it really kinda bothers me because it can be so sad and it's just like ok I get it; it is very tragic but do you really think that they are physically getting payed from "likes" going through the comments (I get bored don't act like you don't too) and people were trying to say they where going to make fake profiles and like it a thousand times to make a thousand dollars an I am just thinking...Wishful thinking? perhaps just being nice? or maybe even sarcasm worst case scenario?  Do you really believe that? I haven't looked it up to see if it is even legit but I'm pretty sure within all the underground media I pour down my throat a day  I am sure face book "likes" save little girl by helping her pay for I don't know cancer treatment, would of appeared some where in there right?

Don't get me wrong, I am a facebook person persay I play with it a lot and like all sorts of different things for any given reason even just because I friggen felt like it but I don't believe its for a cause or anything well maybe a cause I am no where near guilty free of not liking things to "help" someone but it jut urks me about the whole money thing.

end of rant.

Its the end of the world as we know it!

I often open my mouth at the wrong time and apparently have such a crude sense of humor that I am just permanently a sarcastic bitch. "You see what had happened was", I got into it with a 4 year college student. She was explaining to me "why" she believed my career path was stupid. Now I have done my fair share of bitching and complaining in my life time, but I don't think I have ever got to a point to where I have told some one their personal choice for a career "is stupid". I did the whole "big" university shin dig it was great! I had a awesome time, partied my ass off made some mistakes and learned that my morals where questionable. That being said, I yes didn't go to school for fucking rocket science but There is a lot that goes into going to school for photography, especially when you do it live in action and when your expertise is in the production side. I know my fair share of struggles as a starving artist, well I was the motherfucking boss at USF at the age of 17 I was running 7 employees! Loved it, after getting hitched an what not the Army stuck "us" in the armpit of America aka- Clarksville, Tn; It is a bit difficult to get a job in my field  an be payed what you are worth. After odd job after odd job I decided to go back to school for Medical Assisting; which is, a high in demand job. She than looked into my eyes and said so your just going to be a glorified secretary? Excuse me? Did I miss something here? Now it's only two years and up until a few days ago because I lack on occasion attention to detail ( it was a rather large detail to miss but heyyyy it happens i'm human)  I thought I was going to be receiving a simple diploma. I was ok with that it is a piece of paper that I need to get a job come to find out I am receiving an associates degree in applied science. In my opinion that means you have a little more education than just to be a fucking glorified secretary! Livid I explained to her what I see at school everything from Anatomy&Physiology , phlebotomy, psychology , pharmacology, in my opinion it's not as simple as it fucking sounds, but sure i'm a fucking glorified secretary in theory that doesn't mean it took a little bit of brains and time to get there so bite me! I think it went rather well, she then went on to apologize and that she had no idea we even studied anything like that. Really? I mean really? you insulted me with out even knowing what I do? Go take your four year degree and shooooove it!